Cats out of the bag!

So this is a serious topic that I've kept kind of under wraps until recently. For anyone who doesn't know yet I have dropped out of college. Some people may be wondering why and thinking it was a bad idea but I want to assure you it wasn't. I'll start by saying that I haven't been happy in college for a while now I love taking classes for learning but couldn't find motivation for my major. I chose a major that was easy but I didn't like and then tried switching it to a subject I loved but wasn't good at but neither felt right. This is when the worst summer of my life happened, I was told by a family member who was supporting me I was cut off. I tried calling another family member for advice or help and was told to suck it up and drop out if I can't hack it. In retrospect I should have known to go to a friend for this rather than family, it's never been a good idea. My bf was donating plasma and I was taking odd jobs that would accept me in order to not lose the apartment and afford ramen. I tried donating too but passed out and was told by a doctor I physically couldn't. We couldn't afford to run the AC when it was reaching 112 outside. We sat down and had a very serious talk about what we were going to do. It was obvious how unhappy I was and I admitted it was because I didn't want a career, I wanted to be a stay at home wife and mom someday. We kept talking about how possible it was and what our life would look like. I have to work for now while he is in school, so I kept taking odd jobs to build up a resume and hopefully get a real job. Still it was absolutely terrifying that I wasn't a student anymore and had no safety net until the day I worked a bachelor party. Another girl was there as a bartender named Jayde and we hit it off immediately. She was about the same age as me and had also dropped out. She was this carefree breath of fresh air who took what she wanted and it actually came to her. She showed me another side of living in Vegas and even ran a successful blog which I had wanted to start for years. She inspired me to let loose some, to start my blog, and not be ashamed of my decision. Thinking back to how unhappy I was and how negatively I viewed my future only a year ago, it's really obvious how much happier I am and excited I am for the future. Most of my jobs have been a blast and given me interesting experiences.I don't regret any of my decisions because they have given me good and bad experiences and I finally feel like there is a destination so the road no matter how long, seems brighter.

Ariana Grande 2nd base W/ Donut

I'll start by saying that this blog is supposed to entail my opinion on current events as well as talk about my life. So can we talk about Ariana for a second? There's a video going around of Grande licking a display doughnut and then saying she hates America. I know we like to act like celebrities live in some alternate universe to us, but in reality she IS American. I don't know about you guys, but everyone I know has said at some point that they hate this country. One of the things I like is that I'm allowed to have a negative opinion about this country, a privilege not everyone gets. It was a holiday and she seems drunk. Yes Ariana was rude and obviously needs to grow up some. However she doesn't need to apologize to the world or have her actions called disgusting, or arrested for "contamination" because she may have licked a display doughnut. She needs to march her perky butt down to that shop and apologize to that worker. When I hear something about a celebrity I always picture them as a normal person I know and then form my opinion. Because believing they are held to a different standard is what causes the holier than though attitudes in them we hate in the first place. I hope we don't live in a world where if I snap at a stranger I have to post a YouTube video about my mistakes.

Always An Adventure In TV Land & Sin City

I didn't mention that sometimes people mistake our set for a real coffee shop and try to walk in. This happened yesterday while we were shooting. I honestly thought the couple once they realized their mistake would leave, but they were really interested in it. Before I even knew it they were handing us a flyer of their own show they do here at Vegas and saying that they might be able to advertise on the show.I swear everyone out here has something which just amazes me so much. Especially since the woman who brought the dogs who we planned on having gave us free tickets to her show, a topless revue that takes place in one of the casinos. My biggest complaint when I got here is how hard it is to get a job because everyone knows everyone but now it's what I love most. You have might have to fight your way in, but you CAN get in or you aren't even trying. Not to say that's a bad thing, I kind of like not having any expectations on my shoulders whatsoever but I don't really like going unnoticed..Notice me senpai!

Photo Op Time!

Last Week or so we did the photo shoot for the advertisements, billboards, etc. There isn't too much to tell but a lot to show, so this post will mostly be pictures and rightly so. We got pizza for the cast that everyone was too scared to eat until after their photos were taken, you can probably guess that I wasn't one of those people. I was the girl who had a slice before and after and now can't stop thinking about how badly I need to get into shape. Hollywood fad diets here I come, next up military diet! Everyone was fun and took great pictures, mine were hit and miss because it's rare for others to take my photo and I don't know how to position myself. I should really work on that, but first I'll work on my ass so it becomes naturally more photogenic.

 

 

D Coffee Shop Closes at 9PM!

So I have scoured Craigslist for fun and odd jobs and met my share of creeps, cons, and easy money. I came across an opportunity that has made me drop my listing addiction and kept me busy. I saw an ad for a television show being filmed here in Vegas and needed some more people to be part of the team. Of course I jumped on it, but how I actually got it I have no idea. The show is called D Coffee Shop Closes At 9PM. I read the script for the 1st episode and have to say it's right up my alley. It reminds me of the old Twilight Zone episodes (which I'm a HUGE fan of) but where the person who enters it is able to escape better off. My title is sales executive and I'm trying to get people to advertise on the show. So far it's been really fun working alongside Steven Rush and Lakisha Swift and even getting to go to Interop and the proceeding after parties hosted by various businessmen. After which I got to meet "Big Tigger" and get a photo op. I don't want to give a lot away, but will of course post about my best adventures on the job right here. If you live in the Vegas area make sure to tune into MYLVTV when it finally airs in August, and in the meantime you can always go to http://www.lovemindspirit.com/dcoffee.html to learn about the show and some of the stars on it.

Athena's: Goddess Of Jewelry

 Yesterday my job Led me and my boss downtown to the container park. I had only been there one other time, but it was late so all the shops were closed and I was kind of drunk. I was afraid the shops were going to be full of stereotypical Venice beach style shops with nothing unique when I went to my meeting at Jewelry By Athena. It's a small shop located on the second floor that grabs your attention pretty quickly. Necklaces hanging on the open door because the shop is too full to hold them all. When you walk in there's an older woman behind the counter who greeted us politely by the name of Athena. I wish I had taken a picture of her, because she was picture perfect and exactly what comes to mind when someone talks about their amazing grandmother we all want. She told us how she made everything from hand and only started doing this work 4 years prior! That alone was inspiration that you're never too old to learn something new or find your talent. Her employee Kandi whom I had been talking to over Facebook came in and was one of the happiest people I've met. After explaining the pitch to them we asked to take some pictures of their work to see what we liked and they insisted we try everything on and it turned into a full blown selfie fashion show! As a girl who isn't that fond of jewelry and especially the chunky kind, I worked up the courage to try on a couple dainty pieces I found. They were nice, But I then found myself reaching for the big bright blue stone inlaid in gold wrapped wire and matching chain. I was hooked! I really wish I had worn a better shirt, my boss had on a black tank top that went with everything and I was completely jealous. But even though the Egyptian style green gym and gold band necklace you see above clashes with my baby pink floral shirt, you can still see how beautiful it really is. I could see me pairing it with
a simple top and feeling like a powerful Goddess. Or the one right below it with something bold and feeling like an ethereal being. My boss tried on one that was almost a choker and was titanium that looked like it belonged on her neck. These two were my favorites, but I honestly wanted everything in her shop. I plan on coming back for something amazing but in the meantime will have to settle for hopefully doing business with her.This is the kind of shop that deserves customers.

I have a problem!

Can we talk for a moment about my hoarding obsession? It makes no sense! I hate clutter and long for a modern, minimalist style, with a touch of zen. What's keeping me from this? A fear of throwing anything out that I've had for as long as I can remember. The other day I looked around and screamed "I just want to throw all of this away!" I then picked up a tiny water bottle and said "I might need this", and set it down. Maybe this is the complex that comes with a person who has no sense of permanence. Or because being poor has led me to believe if I run out of things, what will I have to do? But the oddest part is that you would think someone with this mindset would have the sense of style that comes with it. Maybe a rustic or Liberace mess. But just looking at anything like that gives me anxiety, which is the reason I always have anxiety. So I should just throw everything out once I'm done with my perpetual laziness. I should probably be a good blogger and show you before and after pictures, maybe even some of the process. Then again that would mean you seeing how horrid my abode is. Maybe just of the closet? I wallow in a life of hypocrisy everyday that I'm too lazy to clean. Part of me knows I should just hire a maid, one of those naked ones I always see advertised on Craigslist. Yes, I would like that but alas I need to do this alone.

About Me

So this is my first official blog post, of course it has to be about me! Too bad I'm not sure what to say. I've wanted to start this blog for years now and recently found  some inspiration to say fuck it and begin. I guess I'll start by telling you my name is Rachel. My favorite colors are purple and teal, I like yoga and video games (nothing 1st person), and am a Pisces. I traveled all over the United States as a kid but if someone asks me where I'm from I say LA. It was the 1st place I lived away from my family and I feel once you're an adult that's kind of where you start over and become a real person. I live in Vegas for now but hopefully not for too much longer, the summers here kill me. After this I'm going international baby! I cannot wait to travel the world with my man by my side. So what can I say about myself? I'm a 5'3 white girl just trying to make her way in a city of scams. But I love my life no matter how much I complain because I am the one who shaped it into what it is. So I can either be proud or shamed of it, I guess you could say it's a little of both. I'll be making my first good post very soon, so stick around!

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